What do you do when you’ve prayed, believed, and waited but God answers differently, or He hasn’t answered at all?
Our life has those moments, those seasons. For us it was when our firstborn passed away. In addition for me would be, ironically, newborn seasons. In Brei’s passing it felt like life took a great pause and I wanted the whole world to pause too, yet the world continued without halt. In newborn seasons I feel like I want so bad to run with the world but I’m pinned down unable to move an inch. Yet in both times and seasons God has been my answer and my peace (sanity).
When there is no answer are we satisfied with Him alone being the answer? When our situation cannot change, can we trust He has not let us go? Our situations, no matter how seemingly dark and long, will pass. In the moment, we can choose to be obsessed with what’s wrong and how we are helpless victims or to acknowledge our difficulty and pain while at the same time trusting that God’s got us. Hang in there. This pause will eventually end.
I guess it all boils down to faith in God and how He loves us so much. If God gave His own Son for me, who am I to withhold my own daughter from Him? If God gave His own Son for me, surely He is for me. I have faith that we will have other children. If it doesn’t happen, I will still trust God that His plans for me are what’s best for me. But I will not have “awww” moments make me weary, or give up my faith to have more children. If you are also hoping for children, or for anything else that seems impossible, just continue running the race and fix your eyes on Jesus:
And let us run with endurance
the race God has set before us.
We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus,
the champion who initiates
and perfects our faith.
Because of the joy awaiting him,
he endured the cross,
disregarding its shame.
Now he is seated in the place of honor
beside God’s throne.
Think of all the hostility
he endured from sinful people;
then you won’t become weary and give up.
Hebrews 12:1b–3 NLTIn the process, God’s peace accompanies our full trust in Him. In the end, it may or may not turn out as what we think, but it will definitely be worth not giving up because He can do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine (Ephesians 3:20).
Excerpt from “When God Could’ve But He Didn’t”
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus as He perfects our faith, and Him who is peace Himself.
